Need to be Broken

Telling others that I'm going to seminary is not always easy.   In fact, I sometimes disguise it and tell them I'm taking Biblical studies.  For some reason I think the word "seminary" conjures up some "holier than thou" image in people's minds.  I know I shouldn't care what people think, but I still struggle with it.  

I am far from "holier than thou".  In fact, one thing seminary is doing is showing me my broken state and just how sinful I really am.  It is not pretty!  I equate it with military boot camp.  There is a necessary season of being broken down to be built back up (stronger than before).  I'm honestly not real thrilled with the breaking down season.  And I have a strange feeling that it may get ugly and last a bit longer than I'd like.  :-0

I am beginning to see this season of brokenness as being a necessity though.  Yes, it may last a while, but I need it.  It is forcing me (not by choice) to put my reliance on God.  If I had a choice, I would not choose it this way.  I would do it on my own, preferably without any discomfort! 

Brokenness shows us that we can't do it on our own.  We are all going to be broken at some point.  If we choose to walk alone without God in our lives and do it our way, brokenness will eventually come and it may be utterly devastating.   The cool thing with God is that, being broken can be soft, gentle, and sweet!  Ah, yes... sweet!  I opt for being sweetly broken any day!

"Sweetly Broken" by Jeremy Riddle