In all honesty there have been numerous times that I questioned my decision to come to seminary. Although confident overall that I made the right choice, there are those occasional moments of doubt. When I'm overcome by a moment of weakness, a nighttime stroll around campus does me good.
I don't know about you but I share more in Peter's pride than Jesus' humility. I recall the countless opportunities I've missed out on serving others because I was unwilling to “stoop down" out of embarrassment or pride. So many missed opportunities that are gone forever. By God's grace I resist the temptation to ask for more opportunities. For I know I will only come up woefully short again. All I can offer is a broken and contrite heart (Psalm 51:17).
Each time I walk away from that statue I am reassured of my decision to be here. The reassurance comes from the fact that this life is not about me. It's about Him. Why? Because He lived a life of service and sacrifice for you and me. "Jesus did not come to be served, but to serve and to give His life a ransom for many" (Matthew 20:28). I am in awe at our Lord. To think that He would stoop so low for me blows me away. In reality, he has stooped much lower than foot washing to save a sinner like me.
Onward,
GrantJ
Well said, G. Seminary was a huge leap for you. Not many would turn their back on a career the world esteems and reach out in faith for something that is unseen, but nonetheless more real. A step from the “elite” to the vulnerable. You did it! You were obedient to something that was simply radical for you. You are a man after God’s very own heart. What an example you are in this day of dwindling faith and tamed adventure-seekers, soothed by the security of what? Henri Nouwen on his time at L'Arche community, “Adam taught me something else: the heart is more important than the mind. When you've come from a university, that's hard to learn.” Congrats on a year of holding on tighter to your Faith than ever before! Proverbs 4:18
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